Vision

Wow...God is Good....is all I can say!!!! God has been speaking to my heart for the last couple of weeks, but either he was only giving me a lil at a time, or I was trying too hard to figure out the rest of the puzzle that I only confused myself, so I could not understand what he was showing me. Well now that I have you all confused, let me tell you what has been on my heart and mind.
About 3 weeks or so ago, I was listening to 'Give me your eyes' from Brandon Heath, it is a song about a man that goes through the day and for notices things that he has seen millions of times, but looked right past them with no though. yet one day he begins to notice, and the song asks for Gods eyes for one day. Not sure why, other than God planing seeds into my heart, but I really started to thank about my 'eyes' and the concept of having Gods eyes for one day got me thinking.
During the next few weeks, it seemed that I had lots to do with my eyes, the family went to our annual eye doctor appointments, (my eyes are getting worse from staring at a PC all day long, so I getting sexy glasses!!!!), on that note it got me thinking how much my eyes lead me to wander from God, I see things that I should not see, my vision leads to my thoughts and imagination and leads to bad thoughts....that is a whole blog in itself. On that same note, without my vision, I would never be able to see the wonders that God has created.
Even though I thought that this was all that God was showing me, was just the physical aspect of my vision, there was still more that I was not getting, there was more that God was trying to reveal to me. As most of you know, my walk with the Lord has taken a long, windy road, don't get me wrong, I have always seen God walking the path with me, there were just times when I choose to walk on the other sidewalk of the street, I still saw him there, and we both ended up at the same destination, many times I just choose to walk on my side...I used the cross walk a few times to get back with him, and there were a few times that I 'J-walked' to get to him sooner, and I remember a few times that I ran through traffic to hurry to him. Now I am happy to be on the same sidewalk as him, allowing him to guide me though the path of life. My walk has been so much better allowing God to lead.....Because I feel that my relationship has grown, I have felt God laying on my heart that I no longer need to be making excuses and really give my whole life to him, I need to serve him with all my heart and all my time, all of me. I give God most of me, some of my time, but I know that we could all give him more.
I remember the times when I was serving God 24 hours a day, I could not wait to talk to someone about my God, about the wonders that he is, and how he has touched my life. I was the man of God that I felt that he was asking me to be. I am sad to say that I am not that man....at least not right now. However, as God has been speaking to me, I have been asking him back, what is it that you want me to do? I know I am not where I need to be, I am still lacking in my devotion time with God, my prayer life is not where it should be, I still have to give more of my life to God. But then God is telling me, I will take you broken now and mold you whole to the form that I desire. My heart says....Yes Lord, I am here, ready to carry my cross! However, my mind remains human, and tries to think of every reason why I can't. As confused as you each probably are right now....so was I. I didn't know what the Lord was asking...and to be honest I still don't completely....however I got a little clarity yesterday at church.
Pastor Ken just got back from Guatemala, he had been there the past week. While there, God was really speaking to him, and on one of the last days. God gave Pastor Ken a vision, a vision of planing churches in the South America region. Yet on that same note, God still wants pastor Ken to continue to grow the pass region (Beaumont & Banning area). In order for all this to come to....there is going to be leaders that are going to have to step up and allow the Lord to work in them....I believe that this is what God is preparing my heart for, I believe that the Lord wants me to be part of Pastor Kens vision, he wants me to step out of my comfort zone and be the Godly man that he has called me to be.....I am so excited....