No Worry Thursday

As most of you know..ok all of you know...I have a daughter from my 1st marriage. And as she has gotten older, she has had some bumps in the road with the different houses, and they way that they operated. I am not sure if it is a positive thing or a lack of backbone on my part, but on most confutation's, I would allow 'ANT' to just go with her mom. My thought process was, it made it easier on her (ANT), she was not stuck in the middle and having to choose between the two of us...Each time I just told her that I loved her and that it was fine, I would see her on my next day. Although each time it hurt me....it was easier for me to be hurt than for her to be hurt. Well her mom always knew this, and took advantage of it....I would mad, just I hated to see ANT suffer because of the poor parenting of her mom. (I am trying to be nice....and not say what I feel....this is my biggest challenge in my walk....I figure if I can forgive her....I can do anything!!!!!!). After many court battles....the custody has remained 50/50, which I have been told for SB County....this is a MAJOR win for a dad, especially with a daughter. However, now that we have moved further from the schools that ANT has gone too here whole life, the drive is difficult for both sides...we each have about a 25 mile drive to the school. We have agreed, at least at this point that she will finish jr. high at the same school....but I know that H.S. there is going to be another fight....I am having major difficulty in what to do. Do I allow her to go to school by her moms, if I do that then she will probably stay with her mom during the week, and me on every other weekend. Just typing this breaks my heart, I promised NEVER to be a weekend dad. However, an hour each way is not fair for ANT to have to endure, and I am not sure it is visible for me and work. Or I could fight and try and have ANT go to H.S. by me and let her be at her moms on the weekends...it is an extremely difficult situation.

Well this issue / conversation came up this morning with ANT on the way to school....I try to stay calm and not show my emotions when we talk about this..I just told her not to worry about, she still has a full year (8th grade) before any decisions have to be made...I reminded her of Matthew 6:34, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own." I am encouraged by this scripture, I pray that I can put my human mind and heart aside and trust in my God, to take care of tomorrow.

Mick